jumpstarting a life with a little spark to the head

I sit out on the porch, just as the darkness begins to surround all around me. It’s only the moon that shines and  reflects its light to the surface of the pool as it ascends through the night.  It’s nice and cool outside tonight. I look at my plants, and I begin to think they are somehow greener than they were a few days ago. In fact, all the trees and landscape looks greener and brighter since the ECT.

It’s odd. Am I just imagining that things look greener, or do I feel a little better?

Because I was allowed to drive by Tuesday afternoon, I headed to Whole Foods for a few things. Nearby the store is a “Life Is Good” shop. Before getting my groceries, I wandered in. Whenever I see a “Life Is Good” shirt or other goods, I’ve tended to cringe almost because I knew I’d be a liar if I wore that message. However, as I looked at the merchandise and saw a shirt with a glass half-full drawn on it, I kind of thought to myself, “Well, I might get there someday.”

The next ECT is only four days away (and this is just the very beginning of this set of ECT treatments), but right now I’m surprisingly at ease, both with my decision and this process.