It’s already coming up on the third ECT session. The last two have not been unpleasant at all. In thinking about tomorrow’s treatment, there’s neither dread nor any sort of emotion. The feeling isn’t that of calmness; it’s as if my nerve endings have been deadened. The somewhat frustrating thing is that the accounts that I’ve read about ECT have people who felt a “lift” even after the first one.
I’m just going to assume this is temporary, because it has to be.