waiting for a lift

It’s already coming up on the third ECT session. The last two have not been unpleasant at all. In thinking about tomorrow’s treatment, there’s neither dread nor any sort of emotion. The feeling isn’t that of calmness; it’s as if my nerve endings have been deadened. The somewhat frustrating thing is that the accounts that I’ve read about ECT have people who felt a “lift” even after the first one.

I’m just going to assume this is temporary, because it has to be.


One Comment to “waiting for a lift”

  1. The worst thing is how you feel like your on this processing wheel and it’s like your zapped then discarded.
    I hated the lack of emotion, just like being a robot. It’s taken 3 hrs for me to be able to feel. I still cant relate to others emotions and feel for them. I’ve become self absorbed.

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