My psychologist, Dr. L, gave me an assignment to do for today’s session. She asked me to write down the concerns and frustrations I have with maintenance ECT at this moment. So, here they are:
- In order to have ECT, I have to interrupt someone else’s life so she can transport me to and from treatment
- Obviously, it’s better for me to still be ‘happy’ when the next ECT treatment rolls around, but exactly how many weeks can I be ‘left alone’ until I need another little spark?
- How do I know if this is really working?
- When you ‘maintain’ something, you do it for a long time. I’ve brought up this concern before, but here it is again. Is there an endpoint to all of this, or is this something I truly need to be maintained?
- Last night, I realized I didn’t remember most of what I had to read for class. My memory loss has been minimal, but will that change as I have more and more ECT?
- Since I’m doing this all the time, could I quit the medications?
- Has going through ECT cost me any chance of being able to obtain health insurance, at least until 2014? (Note: I do have health insurance, but I’m trying to switch to something that comes with at least a prescription drug benefit)
- Is there some sort of a standard that I should be reaching as a result of the ECT?
Maybe there’ll be more to add a little later, because I think I have more than just this list.