Archive for May, 2011

May 31, 2011

a little high-5 to me :) recently posted a list of what they think are the TOP 50 BLOGS ABOUT DEPRESSION on the web today. And apparently, this “Little Spark” blog is one of their picks. They thought my journal “is a standout choice for showing how the treatment works and how well it worked for her.” To the makers of this list, thank you so much for even finding my blog and including me in the company of some amazing blogs.  I am really honored. I have to admit it is humbling to be recognized, and it made my morning to find this out.

Also, congrats to my friend Amy’s blog Una Vita Bella for being a part of this list, too.

This TOP 50 BLOGS ABOUT DEPRESSION list is an amazing compilation of blogs worth checking out. It even gives a short description on all the blogs they mentioned.  Hope you get to see the list.

May 25, 2011

Let’s Tweet for Mental Health!

It’s Mental Health America’s Mental Health Month, and they posted some sample twitter messages that could be sent out during May. They suggest that you use the hashtag #mentalhealthmonth. The following are some suggested messages:

  • The vast majority of mental health conditions are treatable–people live productive lives. #mentalhealthmonth
  • Do More for 1 in 4: It’s Mental Health Month. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. Go to #mentalhealthmonth
  • Who’s your 1 in 4?  Support from family, friends, peers essential in recovery. Learn how to help at  

Well, since we’re talking about twitter, I figured I should do a little shameless plug here and say: follow me on Twitter while you’re at it: @ECTchronicles  :)

 For those who Facebook, they also posted some sample posts:

  • Good mental health is much more than must the absence of illness – it’s about being able to handle life’s challenges and even flourish. Celebrate Mental Health Month with us! Learn more at
  • Wellness encompasses the notion of balance in one’s life among the mental, physical, and emotional elements of health. Live Well! It’s Essential for Your Potential! Learn more at
  • A vast majority of mental health conditions are treatable, we can–no matter how challenging the mental health obstacle we face–always chart a course back to wellness. Live Well! It’s Essential for Your Potential! Learn more at
May 25, 2011

Celebrating Mental Health Month

May is Mental Health Month! Started by Mental Health America in 1949, the goal of the month is (obviously) to raise awareness about mental health and MH conditions. This year, they have two themes that they’re celebrating. Do More for 1 in 4 is a call to action to help the 1 in 4 American adults who live with a diagnosable, treatable mental health condition and the fact that they can go on to live full and productive lives. Download 11 X 17 inch poster. The second theme, Live Well! It’s Essential for Your Potential, focuses on the importance of mental wellness and the steps everyone can take to improve their well-being and resiliency in the face of difficult times and challenges. Mental Health America’s Live Your Life Well program offers ten science-based tools to manage stress and help you relax, grow and flourish. Download 11 X 17 inch poster.

A whole bunch of info is on their web site at but I thought I’d go ahead and post the PDFs they have for various MH conditions and tips for living well.

Do More for 1 in 4

Live Well! It’s Essential for Your Potential

May 23, 2011

Turn of events

So…it happened. I went to the Paul Simon concert this past Thursday, and I’m still reeling from it. If I must compare going to this event to something else, then it was like a religious experience. I got to hear the hymns of my life performed by the very person that wrote them.

I also attended the concert with….(drum roll….)…a boyfriend. He is, in fact, the first boyfriend I’ve ever had in my entire life. I’ve never dated or been in any sort of relationship (except with the cat) until now. I’m sure I’ll write more about my adventures of being in a relationship as I write more, but I think that for now, I’ll just say what a new but wonderful time I’ve had being in this partnership. This is certainly an unexpected happening in my life, but perhaps one that I had been prepping to get ready for as I’ve become more open and honest about my life.

May 18, 2011

Here comes Rhymin’ Simon

Most people that know me have been told that my cat is named Simon, after Paul Simon, the musician. And I will be seeing Paul Simon live on stage tomorrow night!! It’s really like meeting the long, lost godfather to my (feline) child for the first time. I saw him and Art Garfunkel once at a much larger venue, but I can hardly wait to see him solo at a more  intimate setting.

This morning, I’ve been looking up set lists for the other dates that he’s played during this tour and seeing if I need to review any songs. We all have artists that we like to listen to while we drive. I truly am in love with so many of his song lyrics—–as in, I’m emotionally invested in them. But this emotional investment don’t feel as painful as it used to be lately. Rather, it feels beautiful. I just feel glad that I am able to experience emotions without it pulling me into a dark place. Maybe this is one indicator to let me know that I am doing better. And what good timing, because I want to be able to experience tomorrow’s concert  with my mind and heart in a right place. Sure, I have things to worry about, but it really feels good to feel okay to have to deal with worries and frustrations. Suddenly, it’s as if I realized that I still have a future regardless of what rocky roads must be taken to get further along.

Anyway, all I’m thinking about today is that tomorrow’s Paul Simon concert.

May 17, 2011

Strangest moment….

My friend just read this poem to me, and I knew I had to post it.

There Comes the Strangest Moment
by Kate Light

There comes the strangest moment in your life,
when everything you thought before breaks free–
what you relied upon, as ground-rule and as rite
looks upside down from how it used to be.

Skin’s gone pale, your brain is shedding cells;
you question every tenet you set down;
obedient thoughts have turned to infidels
and every verb desires to be a noun.

I want–my want. I love–my love. I’ll stay
with you. I thought transitions were the best,
but I want what’s here to never go away.
I’ll make my peace, my bed, and kiss this breast…

Your heart’s in retrograde. You simply have no choice.
Things people told you turn out to be true.
You have to hold that body, hear that voice.
You’d have sworn no one knew you more than you.

How many people thought you’d never change?
But here you have. It’s beautiful. It’s strange.

May 13, 2011

ECT #38 (my 23rd maintenance treatment)

My maintenance ECT treatment was yesterday, and since my parents are in town, they took me to the psychiatric hospital where I have ECT. I always feel awkward when they are the ones having to take me there, probably because it’s like giving them clear evidence that something is wrong with me—-at least wrong enough to have to take their daughter to a psych hospital. A part of me feels embarrassed, even though I’ve been through this nearly forty times. I just feel bad for my parents that they are having to do this for me. I acted like nothing was the matter, and when we got to the reception desk, I asked them if they wanted free breakfast from the hospital cafeteria. Then, I was whisked away to the inside.

One good news: because of the new parity laws, I get insurance coverage again for mental health stuff! I do wish someone told me about it since i’ve been doing this sans insurance for a while now,  but better late than never…

Otherwise, it’s mostly the usual. I get to the waiting room, use the bathroom, put on the gown and get my vitals checked. They weighed me, and I realized that I’ve gained over 30 lbs. since a little while ago. Then they usher me to the treatment area where they lead me to my bed/stretcher. The usual anesthesiologist wasn’t there, but Dr. F., my ECT psychiatrist came up to me to chat for a little bit. He said that I’ll be having the procedure a few more times but that it is coming to an end.  I’m happy to hear that, but at the same time, I’m very anxious. What if this is what’s been keeping me alive for the last two years. I remember the hiatus we took after the first set of ECT, and it was really horrible. I don’t want to experience that again. I said ok to Dr. F. and they almost immediately put me out, but I’m left with a feeling that I can’t quit this treatment.

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